To Die Is Forever

.....taken from the Loudoun Times Mirror: "On Oct. 3, Stephan Lee Mace gave the ultimate sacrifice for his country;Mace, 21, of Purcellville, was one of eight soldiers who died Oct. 3 in Kamdesh, Afghanistan, when enemy forces attacked their outpost at Camp Keating. " He was a friend of a friend but it still bums me the fuck out knowing this .kid/man. was stationed in a pretty freaking bad part of the territory and because he "followed orders" he is dead. I knew a couple guys who came and went to this shit and came back,partially. One guy is homeless practically and another is missing his legs and his mind.The third is my cousin who is also suffering from post traumatic stress disorder and the loss of certain vital parts of his body. I have never wanted to be on a soapbox and talk down to everyone about how wrong it is that Americans are still dying after all these years in that shitty piece of godforsaken country. We know it's wrong,and like most young guys in that shitty little town they are signing up for it like lambs to the slaughter because they feel it is right to go there and exercise some sort of military action for the people who died in the towers. They know it's wrong but the also feel obligated??I mean we taught the guys how to fly the planes that were utilized in the attacks. It's a total clusterfuck and we can't get out of it...My mind is spinning around trying to make sense of it all. So much going on and no right answers.I feel terrible for this kid and his poor family, going down to the funeral at Arlington cemetery in front of the cameras and the protesters, shit, what a total shit storm.

heavy rotation

For the uninformed this band has gripped my attention lately and I believe it may well encounter great success in the near future. DEER TICK, go and get it.Not the kind to infect you with Lyme's Disease.

Kinda sappy play list, lately the weather has been awful and so has the ideal workplace..I don't want to recommend watching "The Hurt Locker" either. It's crazy fucking depressing. And I feel that Alex Proyas tricked me into watching some Dianetics propaganda movie but instead called it "Knowing"...fucking asshole,man..He directed "The Crow", what the fuck happened to him. "Dark City", c'mon man what's wrong with you???



now fuck off...